Am almost ready to leave for Rad treatment number 28 - how did I get this far without losing my sanity? Perhaps because the cumulative radiation and chemo damage did not rear their ugly heads until this last weekend. I was warned that the end weeks would be tough. And while I was not having fun during the treatments, I felt I was managing them quite well until this last Sunday and I hit square on, a huge brick wall. Ouch did that hurt. Now I am dealing with chemotherapy and radiation damage to my whole digestive system. I was spared the mouth sores thank you God but everything else is just one big molten mess. Constantly on pain meds to keep the pain at bay helps, but I do not like feeling so tired and sluggish. I like moving around and being productive, having a purpose, helping others. It feels alien to me to be on the other side of this scenario.
I am looking forward to coming home from this rad treatment and laying down a bit downstairs. Have not been doing that lately as it seems more comfortable being upstairs in my own bed. Right now, Mallory is laying next to me purring away. Hope that she will still be here when I return as she gives me comfort laying next to me as I try to cope...pets have such a wonderful way of loving you through anything.
Again, I'm sorry this is so short and not full of the vim and vigor as some other posts. In order for Harvey and his Spawn to be destroyed I have to go through a form of destruction myself. A tear down so to speak so that everything can be built back up with healthy cells. Next post I will have what I think Harvey looks like now. Thank you so much for your kinds comments, your cards, your emails, your uplifting notes and goodies - I cherish every one of them and I cherish you for being there. Be well, Marilyne