Had my post op appointment from the biopsy yesterday. Surgeon said he was very concerned until the biopsy came back and he was relieved it was not malignant. A small nodule still remains and he said he is going to watch that carefully and be very aggressive about it (which I concurred with him). So...I have to see him again in six weeks for a scope and DRE and we shall see what we shall see. It is all around the same time as the 6 month scan and visit with my oncologist.
I've come to realize that my life for awhile will be lived in three month increments. And might be so for awhile. This is okay...it simply makes me feel comfortable in knowing my team is still watching over me. I'm not going to say I won't be nervous or anxious or scared with each scan - I will be - that is the nature of the beast to worry. But if the scans and DRE's come back good, I will relish that fact and enjoy my life until the next scan. If the scan shows something and we need to investigate I will handle that as well and as best that I can. While Harvey appears to be dead and only a small piece of his dead carcass remains, we will still have to be diligent and keep tabs on the area. I feel pretty good right now considering - oh I could complain about some things - residual chemo and rad treatment issues - but I am far too thankful to care about that. Really. I thank God every day for His blessings and that is how I will live my life from now on. I thanked God before but not every day. Now it is for simple things and blessings that I did not really 'see' until all this happened.
Thank you everyone for always being there. Loved all your Christmas cards. Be well always, Marilyne
